There's a Nodame and Chiaki in each of us

I got myself a pair of free movie tickets to catch "Nodame Cantabile - The Final Score" part 2. Prior to catching the movie, I had never read the manga, watched the anime, the drama series, the shinshun special series as well as part 1 of the movie. So, without any so-called "background reading or watching", I went to watch the finale with my friend and by the time the movie was over, we had become Nodame fans.

Watching the series and movies, I came to realise that there is a Nodame and Chiaki in each of us. For instance, when Nodame first entered the music conservatory, she had difficulty in getting used to the teaching system and was depressed. Having gone through such situations numerous time, be it in school, at work or anywhere else, it brought back many scary and sad memories.

Fortunately, with the help of her own  strong will, friends and fellow classmates, she was able to overcome the difficulties and excel in what she does best.

Hmmmm, it will be a long time for me to find my own strong will to overcome what I am going through.

Will update again soon, I promise.

决定放弃

2010年6月1日，2358

我决定了，
我决定放弃。
我决定完全放弃小熊，
因为，我不想在看完一场演唱会，尤其是跟“死党”一起High翻天后，还来不及慢慢地回味着演唱会带来的快乐，就得知小熊已经有要好的女朋友或要结婚的消息。

我承认，
我非常自私。
我已经不能忍受好心情再次被破坏，
再次，被某些人取笑。

反正最近也听说了
很多人都在替小熊找个门当户对的女生，
所以，在还没投入很多的喜欢时，
我，还是放弃吧。

感情，本来就不能强求。

不过，小熊，
既然，我们还在一起工作，我们还是保持同事之间的距离吧。

最后，希望以后关于任何感情上的坏消息，请在演唱会之前通知我，
这样，我可以借着演唱会，把一切的不快乐与任何的伤悲通通发泄掉。

Happenings in May

We are 12 days into the month of May. And May is a very exciting month for me.

Exciting and busy.

Here's a recollection of what I have been doing since Mayday:

1st May 2010 - Attended Sam's Wedding in Ipoh
2nd May 2010 - Chelsea beat Liverpool
3rd May 2010 - Received call from Kinokuniya @ Orchard that 《下课后，怪兽家点名》 is ready for collection
4th May 2010 - Caught "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" 《初恋红豆冰》
5th May 2010 - Bought 《下课后，怪兽家点名》
6th May 2010 - Buy microstars and Match Attax Cards - World Cup series
7th May 2010 - Microstars and Match Attax cards shopping continued
8th May 2010 - Attended Scrapbooking retreat at Simei CC
9th May 2010 - Mark Webber won the Spanish F1
10th May 2010 - Dinner Pizza Hut and Applebee
11th May 2010 - Sales of 30,000  五月天DNA Unlimited Final Show @ Taichung, Taiwan completely sold out in about an hour's time
12th May 2010 - Going to work zombie-fied

More excitement to look forward to:

15th May 2010 - Another match
22nd May 2010 - Show Luo's concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium

That's it for now.

我们订婚了

Date: 27.04.2010


Time: AM吧



那天

跟着他一起工作时

他说

“我们已经订婚了。“



我嘛，

就这样地回答：

“哦，那就恭喜你了！”

“而且，也是给女生的一种交代和肯定。很好啊。”



那天，

他什么也没多说

他还是跟往常一样，很“姐妹”地聊着。

只是，从头到尾，他没怎么谈到他的未婚妻。



他没说是什么原因让他看上她

他只说他和她已经交往了四个多月

他没说他们婚礼的筹备

他只说他和她将到那里去玩。



整个谈话中

只觉得他决定踏入后青春期

以前，那个“想当和尚”而不想结婚，觉得女人是很麻烦的他

最后，还是跟着其他人，决定结婚去了。



只记得当年，

我曾经向他“发出挑战书” -

他，会为了钱途，而辞职

他，也会结婚的。



当然，

这一切发生时，

我，也选择“移情别恋”

我，也跟着五月天，一起唱着“我又初恋了”。

如果有一天

最近，身边的朋友都在问：

“如果有一天，你的‘前绯闻男友’甚至是‘现任绯闻男友’有了女朋友，而且就要注册结婚了，你会觉得怎样？”

其实，在多年以前，我也曾问过我自己这个问题。
结果嘞，我发现/觉得，既然没真正地付出任何感情，也没真正轰轰烈烈或简简单单恋爱-ing，无所谓啦。
会难过、可惜吗？不会啦。

人生嘛，暗恋或单恋，也只不过是人生的一个phase。
有缘分的话，就能白头偕老。
无缘无份或有缘无分，也就不过如此。
所以，我能够接受我曾经喜欢的男生最后没有选择我的事实。

我并不是装坚强，
Honestly speaking，
我也没有付出任何effort and energy去“争取”恋爱。
就连在准备论文或审查的当儿，我竟然可以忘掉“前、现任绯闻”男友的存在！

也许，这是魔蝎座自私的恋爱观：
在不确定他就是Mr Right时，
宁可偷偷单恋或尝试暗示他，也不会100%的投入任何的感情，
原因只怕伤害自己。

可能有些朋友会担心我，
会想办法帮我度过这个可能会发生的“如果有一天... ...”，
但是，
我觉得他们的担心是多余的。

去年，他的一个决定，
已经让我完完全全的失去了当年对他的喜欢。
眼泪，
也让我看清了他已经变成了我不想看到的他。

我没有说谎，
也没有装坚强，
我只想告诉大家，
不管最后的故事结局是怎么样，我很庆幸，我有一群最佳“损友”让我emotionally依靠着。



PS: 叫你们“损友”是对的！因为，你们没有阻止我买五月天的Monopoly!!!!!

Don't worry, I will be back... ...

It has been a long time since I last updated this blog. No, I have not forgetton this blog of mine. Problem is I have been busy with Facebook and other stuff. I have alot to share and to rant, but recently, if I am to begin my rantings, I fear, I will be getting hate mails - not that I mind, actually.

I was reading one of my friend's blog recently (yes, I update so INFREQUENTLY, yet, I am a regular blog reader) and she was sharing some thoughts of hers. In her blog, she commented how we have to live not having to take others' words to heart - something I have not been able to do. Now, I have to learn to "sieve out" what others think of me is true and if their opinions really matter to me. It is not easy, but I am trying.

Many things have been happening recently which I will really like to rant about, but at the end of the day, do I really want to immortalize these unremarkable events online by blogging about it. I think not. I may talk about it, but seriously, these stuffs are really not worthy being mentioned here.

On a happier note, the first half of 2010 is going to be pretty busy - with football matches, scrapbooking, weddings, concerts and mini trips to look forward to. Here's a glimpse:

13th March - 萧敬腾 《洛克先生 Mr Rocker》 concert
27th March - Creative Escape with  Donna Downey
1st April to 4th April - Shopping and Makan Trip to KL, Malaysia
17th April - Mayday's DNA Encore concert - 五月天 《 变形DNA - 无限放大版》 @ The Padang
1st May - S's Wedding @ Ipoh, Malaysia

Yes, am looking forward to all the events above.

Will be making a 8 by 8 album for my friend's wedding. Hope it will turn up alright. Album bought and wil begin the work on the covers after blogging.

Will update again soon, I promise.

Where have I been?????

Sorry for not updating for so long.

I have been busy, lazy and there are just too many things to do and to take care of and to attend and etc etc etc... ...

Well, I am back. I know this is kinda late but hey, HAPPY 2010!!!!!

I know that my last few entries were mainly Mayday orientated, but alas, while I have yet to update you all about my recent trip to Taiwan, Mayday will be back in Singapore again. This time, to perform at Padang, Singapore!!!!! I mean, at the Padang!!!

Yes, Mayday will be performing on Saturday, 17th April 2010. Am I going? Of course I will be going???

The last time I caught their concert here in Singapore was 28th August 2009 and 29th August 2009. The songs were nearly the same for both nights except that there were some changes to the selection of songs towards the end of the concert. And yes, as promised to the fans, they did sing past 12 midnight for both nights. That is close to 3 1/2 hours of songs and sing-alongs and screamings.

The fans for both nights were slightly different in that the fans for the 29th show were more enthusiastic and loud. Yes, the mood for the 29th was simply fantastic. Sales for the 29th show went on sales around 4th January 2009, even before the band and the organisers had decided on the theme of their 2009/10 world tours.

The band is back in Singapore for an encore concert and it will be an almost an exact "cloned" version of their concert back in Kaohsiung, where it saw an audience size of more than 50,000 people and at a magnificent venue - the World Games Stadium.

Alright, I will update again, hopefully, later the day.

Meantime, good night (or good morning)!