More Teddy Bear Love

Well, A-GE-NES asked me the other day if I really have so many teddy bears. Yes, I do have many. These are only a handful of the "faithful" ones. Then, I realised that I have forgetten to include the very lovely bear, which flown in all the way from The Bear Museum, Jeju Island, Korea!!! Yes, my Korean bear was a gift from A-GE-NES. Thanks! Yes, this cutie has joined the other "old faithfuls"




By the way, the above layout was the first one which I managed to complete after attending last week's DS-Botanics at Laines, Wheelock. It took me three weeks to find a picture for the layout. Unfortunately, the photos were from pre-digital days, hence, the photos were only of 3R size. I added the leaves at the bottom of the tree, but my mom preferred grass. There are some slight deviations from the instructor's, but I think the layout is alright.

Memoirs of a Geisha??? Mamasan???

Whoever says that make-over will make one more beautiful???

Rubbish!!!

I am utterly ugly!!!

Taking the First Step

Miscommunications.

Misunderstandings.

Sometimes, I wonder if I am at fault more at fault than the other party. Well, recent events had made me think a lot. Eventually, I realise that to break the ice, someone has to make the first move, whether that individual is solely at fault or not. Besides, misunderstandings and miscommunications take two or more to happen. Taking the first step does not neccessarily mean "I am wrong", but, it is the step to improve things.

I was very angry at some people at work. I admit that I was at fault too but I was so emotionally overwhelmed that I could not think rationally. The recent incidents also made me realise that I am quite a scary monster when I am angry.

Looking at the bigger picture, we are still seeing one another almost everyday at work, it is really unhealthy to be working in an unfriendly environment. Furthermore, I am not one who can habour anger very long. I do not want my friends to be asked the question "Is Yen still angry with me?" and then start a long session of complaint why I should not be angry with them. It is very cruel of me that my fellow colleagues and friends have to suffer in silence because of my own affairs.

Eventually, after giving loads of thoughts, I made the first step to apologize or break the ice with the people involved in the misunderstanding or miscommunication.

Misunderstandings and miscommunications have to be resolved as soon as possible, be it at work or at home. Such things are scary and can lead to detrimental effects. With so much ill feelings around, immoral people will seize the chance to worse the situation in order to gain an advantage. Scary, scary,scary... ...

I know what it is like if there are much bad feelings among co-workers. Some negative feelings towards some is unavoidable, but, it will be good to minimize as much as possible. At least, be professional - talk when there is a need.

Still, I must say that I am surprised that those around me found me scary when I am angry. Hahahahahaha ..... ......... Scary!!! Hahahahahah ...... ..... Good, this shows that I have some temper too!!! Hahahahahaha ....

New Love????? Part 5 Finale

WWK vs LA

Teddy Bear vs Chinese Antique Doll

Crush vs One-Sided Love

Alright, this is definitely the finale of my "new love" story. Hmmm, it is more like a novelette.

I have sorted out my feelings today. So, am I falling in love or just a crush?

Well, looks like the feelings for Teddy Bear is just a crush. Yap, just a crush. No love. And I do not like one-sided love affair.

I think I am like Missy V, having soft spot for people who needs an occassional, special care. So, Teddy Bear probably just need some care and attention and I have just given that. It is more like an elder sister showering some care and concern for the little brother, except that this time Teddy is older than me. So, yes, it is just a little crush for Teddy Bear and no more. I am quite sure there is no love involved. To my fellow readers, I hope the episodes (be it at work or blog) have been entertaining. Sorry to disappoint but I am SERIOUSLY NOT in love with Teddy Bear and Mr LA.

I have given these two guys alot of thoughts. Both of them have strengths which I like and weaknesses which I cannot stop laughing but somehow, I feel like I am not getting anywhere with them. Like most girls, I will like to have guys to notice me rather than the other way round. With Teddy Bear and Mr LA, it is sooooooo one sided. Look, I liked Mr LA for so long but he never has any feeling for me. As for Teddy Bear, I think I am just the happy dosage and clown for him during the hectic and stressful time at FS. If Teddy Bear found out that I have some feelings for him, he will be so scared of me in future!!! So, yes, I am not interested in him that way.

So, Mr LA and Teddy Bear are just guy friends whom I can crap alot with. No love. Yes, there are feelings, but, not love. I cannot resist that charming smile and laughter of Teddy Bear, but, that's about it. It is just like me finding Bridgey's glassy eyes or Ashin's smile irresistable. Also, I cannot keep falling in love with all those single guys who go to FS with me, right? Imagine me liking Ming should he go up to do his solo FS with me!!! So, it is just a confusion of a tart!!!

To all my good friends out there, yes, I am NOT in love with Teddy Bear or Mr LA. I have good feelings of Teddy Bear but no love.

I shall look for the my Mr Right when I am done with my thesis. Thank you for being my love gurus, A-GE-NES and Xiu. Sorry, but I think the time for Mr Right to appear is not there yet.

My dear readers, hope you have an enjoyable time throughout this novelette!

PS: Goodness, 5 parts!!! Really a mini series!

PPS: Actually, if you look at the number of teddy bears I have on my bed, you will probably think that I have crush very often. Yes, I think I do have crush very often.

Saturday and Scrapbooking

I have not attend any scrapbooking class for an extremely long time. I think the last one I attended was last year. Therefore, I decided to attend one at Laines on Saturday. I was late for the class and I was soooo embarrassed. Fortunately, I was quite fast and did not delay the class too badly. I miss my train and was 10 minutes late. Sigh... ...

We did three layouts for the "Botanics" class. My goodness, all the fellow mates had pictures ready for the class. I could not find any suitable ones!!! I have been ramaging through for days before the class but I just could not find any suitable ones!!! I think I am going to take one year to complete the layouts or until I can find suitable photos!!!

I did not realise that the layouts will quite "family" related. Most of the fellow scrapbookers had pictures of their children or their family or with their husbands and so on and so forth. I seriously need to look for appropriate picutres soon. If not, I think it will be quite interesting for me to find out how I am going to use the layouts using "non-family" related pictures.

Since I am on the topic of scrapbooking, let me see what I have. In summary, yes, summary only, these are what I have ever since I started scrapbooking in 2006:

1. Cardstocks - 5 packets of AC stacks, amounting to 300 pieces and another 100-200 pieces loose sheets in another bag
2. Patterned Papers - More than 400 pieces
3. Rubber stamps - 6 wood mounted and 2 unmounted
4. Clear stamps - Cannot remember but I have less than 15 sets, regardless of sizes
5. Stamps (similar to clear but not exactly clear) - Less than 10 sets
6. Foam stamps - 5 sets, all from Making Memories
7. Inks - Less than 20 in total
8. Paints - Between 20 to 26
9. Alpha Chipboard - Less than 8 sets
10. 1 Zutter Bind-It-All
11. Making Memories Instant Setter
12. Less than 10 blank albums of various sizes
13. Pens - Less than 20, various sizes and colours
14. Adhesives - 4 tubes of 3M Tacky, 2 tubes of K and Co, 1 small and 1 medium sized Plaid Matt Mod Podge, 1 big bottle of Plaid Royal Coat, and 6 glue tape and refills
15. Stickers - less than 30, of various sizes and themes and materials
16. 1 Paper trimmer
17. Prima Flowers - 2 bottles, 1 small bucket and 2 small sugar jar
18. and others... ...

Yes, like many fellow scrappers, I have bought more than I can scrap. I am happy to say that of all the purchases, I have only had one "wrong" purchase. I bought a second hand squeeze from a fellow scrapper. Currently, I am still no into diecuts, hence, I let it go at S$10.00 and I was glad that a fellow scrapper decided to adopt it. It was a good tool, except that I am not into it at the moment.

Does that mean that I do not scrap at all? Not really. The only problem is that I am more into mini albums. Just this year alone, I have already made 1 accordin album, 7 mini albums and 2 mini mini albums. The 2 mini mini albums were made from mini mini album kits. My friend gave the mini mini album kits to me as present but the theme was not to my liking. So, I did the album and gave to my friend and explained that the theme was not really the style I enjoy working with.

As for layout, I have only completed one. There are three still pending completion from the class which I attended on Saturday.

So, the question is, will I ever use up my materials? I suppose I can use up the materials.

After graduation next year, when I have most of the time devoted to scrapbooking, I am sure the papers will be used up much faster. Besides, I already have some projects planned for 2009:

1. Love Album
2. Wedding Guest book
3. Wedding Album
4. Baby Scans Album
5. Baby "Growing" Album
6. Baby Scans Album

And guess what? All the above albums are intended presents for my friends!!!

Will I be doing anything for myself? I suppose so. I have plans for the following 2009 scrapbooking projects:

1. Calender, featuring Mayday (I have one featuring Petr Cech, goalkeeper of Chelsea FC for 2008)
2. A 12"x6" album featuring Chelsea FC
3. Complete 2 mini albums for Stuffy Ni and Fadi (Agnes and Xiu had already gotten their long over due mini albums)
4. 1 12" by 12" album of my Uni days in Melbourne (wow! this is going to be a huge project for me!!! That is 20 layouts in all!!! Faintz... ...)
5. One mini album featuring all the concerts I attended in 2008
6. Cards

I suppose with my current materials, even if I do not shop for more supplies from today onwards, there should be more than enough. But then again, being so addicted to the supplies, I will still get more materials, except, lesser. Yes, I have not been buying loads these days. I only shop when there is really a great bargain for the items that interest me.

I need to save up for a European trip. Hope that by 2009 or 2010, I can travel to England, Ireland, Germany, Czech Rep, France, Spain and many others.

Alright, I am going to read up. Need to complete the write up soon. I have been sleeping too much on Saturday and Sunday.

Edogawa

On Friday, as planned, with the help of Angela, we had ala carte buffet at Edogawa, which is located on level 4, The Central.

We had many rounds of prawns - be it grilled, tempura or teppanyaki style. In conclusion, the teppanyaki ones were the nicest. We also had teppanyaki/grilled salmon, mackeral, eel, beef, lamb, salmon. As for tempura, it was mainly vegetables and prawns. Some of us wanted to try the rice or noodle sets but just the tempura, teppanyaki, salad and the many rounds of desserts (desserts were green tea ice cream and mango pudding) were enough to fill us up. Not to mention the sashimi, which was mainly consumed by Juan, PY and me. Very filling!!!

Besides the fact that the resturant was not very easily found and that it is not accessible for most people, Edogawa's food and ambience was pretty good. I will give it a 7.5 to 8 out of 10. We got a riverside view, which enhanced the mood. We really enjoyed ourselves very much. Not to mention that we crapped all the time.

I am very glad that everyone had a good time. Hmmm, shall instigate A-GE-NES to host a steamboat at her place to host all of us. Heehee... ...

And now, some of the pictures:

PY is very photogenic right? Sigh... ... If she puts on a bit more weight at the right area, she will make a very good cover girl!!! Anyway, am fed up with my server. Am trying to load more pictures, but... ...

Will try again maybe later or tomorrow.



Meantime, have a good week ahead!!!

New Love???? Part 4

Alright, my love gurus are not aware of what they are into when they agreed to be my love gurus. My love gurus, also known as A-GE-NES and Xiu have decided to be my love advisors without knowing what kind of rubbish business they are into!!!! Hahahah ... ... (more evil laughter)

Well, some people are finding it strange that I am seeking help from someone so young. I know it sounds ricidulous but yes, my love gurus are, indeed, very young.

I believe there is no such thing as "cannot learn from the young ones". At times, learning a trick or two from the younger generation can yield unexpectedly good results. While older, does not mean they are definitely wiser. On the contrary, as one grows older, blinded by the "dark force", they lost themselves and their advices will upregulate more vices and unhappiness. Scary, isn't it?

Anyway, my love issue continued as S, B, SW, PY, Angela, Juan and I went to this Japanese restaurant for dinner. Love guru A-GE-NES was not able to join us as she had exam. Well, the dinner was to celebrate B's belated birthday as well as to wish her all the best for her HMDP. The talk was on all sorts of issues - from LA to Mr LA and Teddy Bear issue. S suggested that I asked Teddy out. Hmm, sounds like a grand idea.

I did a mini survey today and most people felt that Teddy is more outstanding than Mr LA. Personally, I really do not know who is better. Sigh, hope I will find an almagation of both.

Teddy Bear vs Mr LA.

Enough said. It will be so embarassing if none of them actually like the big, loud and chirpy me.

Will try to upload pictures for love guru to see later today.

Teddy Bear vs Mr LA.

Hmmmm..... ........

New Love??? Part 3

I was telling my mum earlier that I would be dining out tomorrow, which is actually today, Friday. My silly sister then told my mum that I would be hanging out with a guy, whom she assumed to be Mr LA. To their surprise, I told them that Teddy Bear has gone home and so, I will be dining my usual girl gang!!! To my surprised surprise, my mum commented that I am fickle minded!!!

Well, the truth is, I will be dining out with my friends before B left for USA for her HMDP. Besides, we missed celebrating her hatchday, hence, sort of having a belated hatchday party.

I had a busy week doing frozen section. On Monday and Tuesday, there were just mountains of cases and come Wednesday, not only were there many cases, I had to entertain CN and make sure everything is in order and that SW can learn a trick or two from me. Wo, that CN, he just cannot stop talking. He really hated a certain person. Worst of all, he thought I was the pet of that certain person. Thankfully, he realised I was not. I will never be the pet of that certain person.

Teddy Bear's, maybe.

My love guru - A-GE-NES, is on leave, but, being responsible guru that she is, she asked me how I was. I am fine except that I am still thinking of the issue of Teddy and Mr LA.

I really do not know when I began to have a soft spot for Teddy Bear. When I was working with him last Monday, I really did not think highly of him. By Wednesday, when I heard that he had never done frozen before, somehow, I felt sad and pitied him. Before I knew it, I decided to help him as much as I could.

When I heard that he was going home after being here for six months, the forlorn look on his face, I do not know. I just had this strong urge to want to give him an encouraging hug to tell him that he was doing fine and that he will be better!!! I wanted to give him an encouraging hug!!! I must be mad!!! I was not this nice to Mr LA.

So, do I like Teddy Bear or is it that I pity him?

I do not know.

I do not know if I have love feelings for him, have a crush on him or sympathy for him.

Sigh... ... This is so confusing!!!!

New Love?? Part 2

Well, I am to revise my module and read up more on prostate cancer but somehow, I cannot concentrate. I am thinking of something. I would not have thought about it until I had a conversation with my mother about Mr Cutie before dinner time.

I was telling my mother about this new cute guy in my lab. Told her his age (same age as Ashin), how he looks like, family, education history, his pimples, complexion and blah blah blah. Then, my mother asked me how he compared to Mr LA. Totally different class. This cutie is, cute. And I cannot forget how our big big boss teased me about him last Wednesday happily. And I really mean Big Big Boss. And then, on Thursday, LKH had to asked me if I find that cutie cute!!! I mean, he's definitely CUTE!!!! I even told him that cutie is cuter than him!!! Missy V was very upset that I commented that cutie was cuter than her LKH, so, I did my damage control by saying that cutie is also cuter than Mr LA.

But is true. Cutie is indeed cuter than Mr LA. He has a certain charm. He maybe a bit slow at some of his work, but I like him making an effort to change to be better. He is still new to our environment after all. I remembered telling him that he had to do certain thing certain way and wooo, he laughed so heartily!!! Really heartily!!!! It was as if I had told the funniest joke for the day.

Mr Cutie is slightly younger than Mr LA, has more zest in him. Mr Cutie has a certin degree of innocence in him. He is like a teddy bear. While Mr LA, hmmm, he is more like a fatherly figure.

So, my mother continued the conversation and asked me what will happen if Mr LA decide to like me.

I don't know.

Actually, I will be very happy to learn that there are guys out there who adore me so much that they are fighting over me. I suppose you can say that I have a certain charm, charisma, nice personality and character. Hmmm... .... I know, I am day dreaming.

Mr Cutie vs Mr LA... ...

I don't know if I am liking him already. It could be that we were working together last week, so ... ...

I have never have any feelings for him. Just thought that he was blur and not comparable to Mr LA. Did not think too highly of him because I always think Mr LA is the best. But after last week ... ...

So confused... ...

Back to reading... ...

New Love?

Hmmm, I am just thinking, am I liking someone else? Am I going to give up on Mr LA already? Hmmm, am thinking so much that I need advice of someone who is 8 years younger than me. Why am I losing interest in Mr LA already?

But, it has been six long years. I have invited him out for concerts so many times and he had only accepted twice. He has changed over the years and I really miss the enthusiastic and humble Mr LA who was still a trainee. He has matured over the years while I matured much slowly. I am still the happy cheerful technologist while he is only interested in work and matters which will benefit him.

Mr LA is no longer the gentleman I know. I do not know what he has become. I seem to be losing interest in him. Or have I known him so much that I am losing interest?

But I seem to be looking at someone more. The smile and the small little eyes and that characteristic laughter... .... Hmmm... ... Not bad built either... ... Hmmm ... ...

A-GE-NES!!!! Help!!!Xiu!!! Help!!!

I had a Bad Day

Is September 11th today. The day which saw the fall of the Twin Towers in USA.

7 years ago, while I was studying in Melbourne, I remembered ironing my clothes in the living room of the hostel when the US students started storming into the living room and was watching the tv with much attention. I was not sure what happened but the next thing I heard was that Pentagon was bombed. Pentagon?? Bombed??

And then, I looked up and saw the plane crashed into the second tower just as the reporter standing in front of the towers was reporting. So, it was real.

Now, back to 2008. My bad day.

Went to work as usual and then informed boss that one of the machine had some problems and this was going to cause some inconveniences. And then was a torrential of problems. Yes, torrential.

So, the whole day, I was busy solving problems here and there, trying to get things work. Thank goodness I had some help from fellow colleagues.

Sigh... ...

I had a Bad Day.. ...I had a Bad Day.. ...

Bad Day... ...

Mr No2Good

Mr No2Good, friend of MayDay's lead vocalist Ashin and co-founder of Stay Real, was in Singapore last month!!! 15th August 2008!!! Where was I??? I could've gotten his autograph and maybe a photo with him!!! Where was I??? Mr No2Good!!!

Next time, maybe.

And my "bad friend" Sam, did not tell me that Mr No2Good was in Singapore!!!

Sigh ... ...

Headaches, Eczema, Migraine, Mood Swings ... ...

Headaches, Eczema, Migraine, Mood Swings... ...

Just read Agnes's blog, and I must say that I am suddenly thinking alot.

There are many things, which I do not understand. I was pouring my woes with Missy V about a certain Mister. This certain mister, ahem, was, ahem, petty. Yes, a petty man. Missy V then reminded me that I needed to think before I said anything because Mister is a petty man. But, how am I suppose to know what I said had to be the "perfect pitch"???

Suddenly, communcation seems worse than studying the relationship between p53 and apoptosis or cell cycle regulation. But I really cannot understand why Mister had to behave so unprofessionally!!!

Never mind, I am not going to try to understand anyone. This is worse than sitting for any exams. I shall just be myself.

Besides my "bad influenced" friends, studies, scrapbooking, my loves for many guys, my other hobbies and indulgence, I shall not be bothered with the trivalities associated with trivalities.

Headaches, Eczema, Migraine, Moond Swings . . . . . .

I want to take leave and go to Beijing and Shanghai to see MayDay and Linkin Park!!!

On a happier note, I am going to see F1 soon. Woo hoo ... ... F1!!! Kimi!!! WooHoo!!!

1st September 2008

Happy Teachers' Day!!!

If you are a teacher, yes, Happy Teachers' Day to you!!!

Well, is finally the first day of September and very soon, we will be close to end of 2008, another year of ups and downs.

I have a very busy weekend and Monday. Over the weekend, I decided to go to the Comex fair to check out some cheap deal. In the end, I gave up on the broadband plan.

So, how much have I spent this time round?

Printer: S$99.00
320GB Hard Disk: S$130
Total Spent: S$229.00

Alright, hitting the books.