A Very Eventful February

Well, today marks the end of another month of 2009. It seems like time is passing very quickly and a bit slow at times. I do not know.

February has never pose much problems for me. Be it in school or at work but February in the year of 2009 was hectic - work, thesis writing, emotion and festivities.

While January began with much activity from seeing MayDay and then to Lunar New Year, February began with much work, mainly preparation for the coming audit. As the original in charge of the duty will not be around, I, as the reserve, will be "playing with the first team".

And then, there is the news that someone whom I have been having a terrible crush on will be leaving for greener pasture. Friends and colleagues have been asking me if I will miss him and I will be awfully dishonest if I said "no". I remembered being sad, angry, disappointed and irritated when I learnt that he was leaving the current workplace.

I always think that he will not leave the current workplace for any reasons. I used to argue with him when he told me that he will not be swayed by any reasons to move even when I tempted with a big paycheck. But now, it seems like he is indeed moving and I have won the argument that he will indeed move on one day.

Whatever it is, it only shows that there is no way we will ever get into any serious relationship. Our differences are drifting apart as the years go by. Perhaps, it is fortunate that we have never started on anything serious.

I know that I am not the right person for him. Naively, I thought I could change his mind about me but it is getting useless. (Thanks to all my friends who think I can make a differenece) He is kinder and much gentler to other women and I am, at best, an ear for him to rant. Come to think of it, I have never been a friend. He looks at things macroscopically while I can look at things from the macro aspect all the way to nanoscopic if need. I am not merticulous but analytical, maybe.

He is leaving us when this is going to be a time for us to grow and mature even more, professionally. Whatever his reasons are for leaving, I will wish him all the best. I can imagine that the next time he bump into any of us, we will all have become better professionals, equipped with better knowledge and skills he can ever think of.

So, this is my February.

Busy with work, thesis writing and tons of other things and events.

Nothing makes me happier now than spending time with my friends, reading, preparing my thesis, scrapbooking and keeping updated with events relating to my favourite football team and band.